So here I am struggling to go back to bed at 3:40 in the morning, I have battled with my back pain over the last week, in fact ever since I did the demo at Imag-e-nation.
Over the last 3 to 4 years I’ve learned to cope with back pain, finding ways to cope with it learning new ways of picking up from bottom shelves learning to use things like benches to take the strain from my back when ever I bend.
Learning to ask for a chair or stool to perch my bum onto when doing demo’s as pride plays a big part in it. I awake in the morning stiff and grouchy, pushing the pain just to walk to the bathroom, taking an hour to pull myself together just from the psoriatic arthritis and fibromyalgia , getting the ligaments stretched out enough to start the day, so then to the back pain, if I spend too long in bed I suffer, if I spend too little in bed I suffer, so I’m walking a thin line.
I don’t want sympathy, I want solutions, I had a serious chat with myself wondering if a stick would help for walking, not sure I’m ready to go down that route just yet but not sure how long it will be before I have to give in on a bad day.
I get sick of hearing myself moaning and grumbling about pain, it gets you down. I started to take action in healthy eating and have been quite pleased with some weight loss and thought it may help but so far nothing in the pain direction, I’m trying gentle exercise although some morning I just cant do it.
I had wanted to be back in bed most of Sunday and gave in to a deep heat rub around lunch time but I knew by 10pm last night that I was destined to an early night. So hence sitting here typing this at a silly O’ Clock in the morning. I awoke at 02:45 and knew that a cup of tea was needed.
Back to the Doctors I think is the way forward.