Some days it's a struggle, some days it's good and some days it knocks you sideways.
I think managing pain has to be one of the hardest things to do.
When I was young I thought it was only old people that got daily pain, as you grow into the world you soon realise it can hit anyone at any time.
It even gives you a sense of humour, I have found many people who suffer pain have the biggest sense of humour. The phrase "if I didn't laugh I'd cry" comes to mind.
I decided to write this after suffering a real flair up in my own condition, I suffer from Psoriatic Arthritis and Fibromyalgia. Normally I have it under control and manageable.
I won't talk meds as everyone is different but I do take a cocktail of injections and tablets to keep me right.
So what has happened to give me the flair up that has knocked me sideways... who knows?
I recently had to do an increase on meds to try to get everything back the way is was and manageable again, I get sick of hearing myself moan about the pain and yes sometimes I cry when no one can see me but I try to steer clear of the self pity route but let me tell you it is damned hard when you are hurting.
So double the meds and the feeling of walking through a dream until your body adjusts, wanting to fall asleep every time you sit down, frightened to drive because of the fatigue.
Hearing phrases like "you look well" and thinking if you only knew the half of it.
Oh and to top it all off my gorgeous Daughter gets married in two weeks and I have the favours to make.
So for now I am putting on the happy face and doing the things I can do and leaving the things I can't.